Sunday, October 10, 2004 Y
im so damn bored...ever since i stepped into e house in e morning, i have been "stuck" to e com...beside slpin for 2 hrs, havin dinner and checkin on some stuf..i tink if u were to see me now, i will still tink tt im alright..but in actual fact, im not...i have been "stabbed" in e heart and its still bleedin...i dun really like to show my feelings to ppl...tend to bottle tings up until i cant take it before letting them kno...
for e whole day, ive tried tokin to him...managed to ask 1 question..."wad did i do to make u find me irratating?askin too much question?"he said "yup"....i felt pretty sad...to me, in a relationship, we muz give and take, show care and concern for each other....ive done my part..when he was sick, i couldnt go out...but when my parents left the building(my house la) i immediately took a cab to his house(only 15 mins walk)...bought food for him too...occasionally askin where he is is to have a little piece of mind bout him...but he finds it irratatin..im juz being concern bout him...and if he finds it irratatin, i try to dun ask him soo much questions le lor..
he dun like ppl to control his life....me too...tt's y i dun really like to ask too much from a realationship...at least let me kno wad u are doin den i dun disturb le...oh well...let tings take its course...hopeful can change alittle...haiz
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